I had a fic idea today. If I can write it is another story, and it's been ages since I've even thought of writing a song fic. I hope I can do it justice.

So I've completely failed to do much of anything of late. No real surprise there, I had overtime I had to do - don't get me wrong, I love my job - er most of the time, but the mandatory over time once a month on Saturday can really bite.

I don't know why I'm doing this, I guess for my own sanity, or lack thereof. I really need a good ShiShi icon and possibly a good Kojiro icon. If such things exist. If you cannot find what you want, then make it, I suppose...

This is part of the rewrite I'm working on. The original title I've decided to scrap, but I don't know what I'm going to call it in the meantime.

We'll call this a preview or a teaser, whichever. It's Kojiro point of view, first person present, at this point, Satoshi's 20-21ish, Kojiro is 27. If it needs clarification, please feel free to ask.

( “So… what happened to Takeshi and Kasumi?” I ask. )

In other randomness, my Roommate is watching the old Shogun and it makes me want to write a psuedo-feudal Japan pokémon fic, but I don't know what I'd do...

~ASG

Two days back to work and I'm already watching for the weekend. Probably not a good sign.

Haven't really had time to write, but I took plenty of time to add a bunch of House MD related communities and icons to my stash and finally update with the Pokémon ones I'd made note of last week.

Maybe after I make the phone calls I have to make I can get some writing in before bed...

~ASG

After my declaration I wasn't going to post anything from my old works... I found myself rewriting one of the old Kojiro/Satoshi pieces I had written.

Go figure.

It's at about 2100 words now. Same point in the original was at 1460.

Considering I've had the worst writer's block for years now, I'm not complaining. I just wish I didn't have to work tomorrow, but after a six day weekend, I'm also not complaining. I went home from work sick last Wednesday, stayed home Thursday, had off Friday, then the weekend and today was a paid holiday.

I just hope I can keep up the writing once I go back to work again.

~ASG

Title: Precious Illusions
Author: ASG
Rating: suggestion of consensual relations
Warnings: Shigeru angst; Japanese names/terms used throughout, implied paid relations.
Summary: When you do the right thing for all the wrong reasons it doesn't matter after it's all said and done if you wish you could take it all back. (ETA: For sake of clarification, presume Shigeru won the Indigo League title and this is from his point of view, approximately 11 years after their journeys began.)
Original Prompt: 384 Precious Illusions from all_unwritten
Not beta'ed, sorry.

( 539 words )

~ASG

Well, perhaps the muses have not vacated as far away as I'd thought. I'd planned to go into work today and do a few hours because I've been out due to illness (mental or otherwise) the last two days and instead I talked myself into stay home and writing.

I now have just over 700 words on something new. It's Shigeru-centric at the moment and hopefully will not do that dastardly "switching back and forth between POV" that I used to be so good at. It's set in old school Indigo League, but oh well. I've already had to make up characters, but I will sing the high praises of bulbapedia, which is refusing to load right now so I can't link to it properly. Oh well. Apparently in my doddering old age, I don't remember the English as well as I thought I did. It's funny to me that I remember the Japanese names better. Totally forgot Hiroshi was Ritchie. Completely. Had a good laugh over it too. Also realised belatedly I don't remember the English pokémon names either - so praises to the Bulbapedia.

I can't wait until I can post this new bit on a comm or something, I miss feedback, good and bad. I remember getting flamed for writing Satoshi and Shigeru as a couple. I always aged them appropriately, but still... I suppose eight years changes a lot of things.

~ASG

As my profile says, I used to write pokémon fanfiction - it's been long enough I had to stop and think which combination of keys produces é though. I've recently taken a long and length trip down memory lane re-reading my old works and collaborations.

I am not currently friends with anyone I used to write with - which considering most of what we wrote was graphic slash is rather bad form on my end, I suppose. Think about it - sex is pretty revealing, you show sides of yourself in that regards that's usually left for lovers and spouses. I know sort of where they are, but they've moved on, I've moved on. I don't even live in the same place anymore.

I miss writing.

I miss the insane amount of writing I churned out back then. I look at what I pick and hunt through now and I'm ashamed of myself. Yes, things have changed, I have changed a great deal. But I have regrets.

Anyone who tells you they live their life without regrets is lying.

I know better than to be living in the past, to want to relive the past, and yet, here I am with a brand new shiny journal to clean up the silent corners of my mind.

~ASG